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[lethechained]

[There may be something to be said for both their dedication that they're still friends, even now. At first, she wasn't sure quite how they'd manage it, but... she'd been more than willing to try. He was too important to her for her not to. Still, it stung, remembering how she'd failed him, and unfortunately that did tend to happen when they were around each other. That said, she's always happy, truly, to see him. She's got that to look forward to at the moment, at least, as she waits.]

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[wingblades]

Yeah, just... phew. I didn't think I'd choke on one. Bleh.

[lethechained]

[It'd be comical if she wasn't worried.]

I'm surprised, too. Sorry about that.

[Not that it. Was actually her fault, but.]

[wingblades]

Hey, it's not your fault.

[lethechained]

[A little bit of a smile.]

I'm still sorry it happened to you. You had me scared.

[wingblades]

I'm fine, Namine.

[lethechained]

Good. I'm glad.

[She'll just. Have to be careful with her own cupcake, apparently. Until then, though, she'll smile over at him, just a bit.]

[wingblades]

[He'll sigh and lean afterwards on his seat. At least he seems more relaxed now.]

Man, what am I doing....

[lethechained]

[She is, too - at least at first, because she hears that and cannot help looking over at him questioningly, even if she hesitates to actually say anything.]

[wingblades]

I'm sorry, Namine.

[lethechained]

[She's not sure whether that's a good thing or a bad one. Something in her chest clenches.]

For what?

[wingblades]

For what I did.

[lethechained]

--....

....

[Her heart is pounding in her ears.]

You did what you thought was best.

[wingblades]

But was it really the best though?

[lethechained]

[She falters.]

I... I don't know. [... A sigh.]

Are you happy?

[wingblades]

... not really.

[lethechained]

[She presses her lips together. She shouldn't. She really shouldn't. But-- it's the truth.]

... I'm not, either.

[wingblades]

[He sighs and looks up at the sky.]

So I didn't do both of us a favor doing that.

[lethechained]

[Her eyes are still on the ground.]

I... guess not.

[Even if she should probably say that maybe it needs more time, she... can't really find it in herself to put much faith in that.]

[wingblades]

... if I ask you something, will you answer me honestly?

[lethechained]

... Of course, Ven.

[She feels a little twist to have said that, after what happened - but the fact of the matter is, she's never been one to lie, even if she doesn't always speak the entirety of her mind.]

[wingblades]

... when we broke up, you also said around that time, you just found out about having a heart.

[lethechained]

[Her nod is a little belated and slow, but truthful.]

I did.

[wingblades]

... do you think... if you had that knowledge earlier, you would have open up sooner?

[lethechained]

[She breathes out the quietest of sighs.]

... Yes. Because then I... wouldn't have been as afraid of hurting you, if I let myself say or do the things I wanted to.

[wingblades]

... you must think I'm so stupid for asking this.