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[lethechained]

[There may be something to be said for both their dedication that they're still friends, even now. At first, she wasn't sure quite how they'd manage it, but... she'd been more than willing to try. He was too important to her for her not to. Still, it stung, remembering how she'd failed him, and unfortunately that did tend to happen when they were around each other. That said, she's always happy, truly, to see him. She's got that to look forward to at the moment, at least, as she waits.]

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[lethechained]

[She falters.]

I... I don't know. [... A sigh.]

Are you happy?

[wingblades]

... not really.

[lethechained]

[She presses her lips together. She shouldn't. She really shouldn't. But-- it's the truth.]

... I'm not, either.

[wingblades]

[He sighs and looks up at the sky.]

So I didn't do both of us a favor doing that.

[lethechained]

[Her eyes are still on the ground.]

I... guess not.

[Even if she should probably say that maybe it needs more time, she... can't really find it in herself to put much faith in that.]

[wingblades]

... if I ask you something, will you answer me honestly?

[lethechained]

... Of course, Ven.

[She feels a little twist to have said that, after what happened - but the fact of the matter is, she's never been one to lie, even if she doesn't always speak the entirety of her mind.]

[wingblades]

... when we broke up, you also said around that time, you just found out about having a heart.

[lethechained]

[Her nod is a little belated and slow, but truthful.]

I did.

[wingblades]

... do you think... if you had that knowledge earlier, you would have open up sooner?

[lethechained]

[She breathes out the quietest of sighs.]

... Yes. Because then I... wouldn't have been as afraid of hurting you, if I let myself say or do the things I wanted to.

[wingblades]

... you must think I'm so stupid for asking this.

[lethechained]

[-- She shakes her head.]

Of course not, Ven. ... You can always ask me anything.

[wingblades]

... if... if we gave it another shot, do you think things might be different?

[.... sob he's weak.]

[lethechained]

[She sucks in a breath, startled despite how she should have seen this coming more clearly.]

I....

I think so. I know that I would do my best.

[wingblades]

... would you want to?

[lethechained]

[There are a lot of things she could say, and her breath shudders for a moment as she tries, but-- the most unrestrained truth is what gets there first.]

Yes.

I don't-- want to hurt you again. But... I can't say that I don't want to be with you. I do. ... Very much.

[wingblades]

I know I'm the last person who should be asking this, but... I can't help it either.

... I still care for you too much.

[He's really weak.]

[lethechained]

[She is, as well.]

I... care for you, too.

[And she can finally say it.]

[wingblades]

... what do you think? Should we give it another go?

[... he offers his hand towards her at that.]

[lethechained]

[Does she dare? Is it right for him? There are so many thoughts whirling in her head, but-- but her eyes lower slowly to the hand offered to her, then back up to his eyes, and... she reaches out to place her hand in his.]

Yes. I'd-- really, really like that.

[wingblades]

[He lets out a relieved breath he's been holding all this time, his fingers lacing with hers again. It's been too long.]

You might not believe me [given he was the one who broke up in the first place] but yeah, I'd like it too.

[lethechained]

[It's about the same time that she sighs, too, her eyes shutting for a brief moment as their fingers lace. At his words, her eyes open again.]

... I'm... so glad, Ven.

[And if she didn't believe him, it'd only be because of lack of faith in herself, not lack of faith in him. As it is, though,]

I really do understand.

[Why he did it in the first place. But then -- she'd much rather focus on the relief in her chest and the way that it feels to hold his hand again.]

[wingblades]

I thought you'd hate me afterwards for it.

[Which is what worried him when the idea first came into his head. He gives her hand a soft squeeze.]

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[lethechained]

[She squeezes back.]

No, of course not. You were trying to do what you thought was best. I could never hate you for that.

[... Well,]

I don't think I could ever hate you.